Why does being a woman have to be so...EMOTIONAL? I don't think I have ever cried so many happy tears as I have in the past week. I don't know what it is but I'm just plain happy. I feel like my heart is swelling with love and will explode at any second.
I guess what overwhelms me so much is all of the love the surrounds me. My sweet, loving husband...my beautiful babies. My amazing family who never ceases to amaze me. All of the caring people that surround our family and continue to go above and beyond for us. It makes me feel like a bum! Is there something I could do for someone else to touch their life as much as these people have done for me?
We went to the annual Stout Christmas Party on Saturday night. There was a beyond beautiful park completely decked out and decorated in Christmas Lights. It was like a true winter wonderland. Teddy and I bundled Payton up and took her to walk through it. I just love to watch her. Her little eyes are filled with wonder and amazement at everything she sees...and let me just tell you, she LOVES Christmas lights. On the way home I sat in the back seat between the babies to keep them occupied. Payton was laying her head on my shoulder and wanted me to rub her leg until she fell asleep. Ryker was holding my other hand by a finger and drinking his bottle as he fell asleep. I was basically smashed in between a love sandwich. These two little beings are literally my entire world. I never knew I would be able to love someone as much as I love them. Before I had my son I asked my dad how I could possibly love another baby as much as I love Payton. After I had Ryker, I remember my dad coming into the room and asking me, "Do you see how you can love him now?" I do. They amaze me every single day...and becoming a wife and mom is BY FAR the greatest thing that has ever happened in my life. I am 110% head over heels in love with them. How did I get SO lucky? Or rather, blessed?
My best friend burned me the new Taylor Swift CD. I have a love/hate relationship with Taylor Swift. She is obviously amazingly talented, but I can't stand it when the radio plays her songs to death. Her songs are great until you hear them 3 million times. So many songs on this new CD have touched me, but I am praying the radio doesn't take those songs and run them dry. There is a song on there that every mother should listen to...it's called "Never grow up".
Oh, darlin don't you ever grow up
No, never grow up
Just stay this little
I won't let nobody hurt you,
Won't let no one break your heart
Yeah, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up
If you're wondering, yes, I cried my eyes out when I listened to this song. What am I going to do one day when my kids grow up and I can't cuddle them and give them unlimited kisses? The answer is simple, I better cherish this time with them and live every day with them like it's the last.
"I just realized everything I have someday is gonna be gone"
If you can't stand cheesy, corny, annoying love...this post probably wasn't for you. If you are interested in any other good songs on the Speak Now CD, I really like Dear John, Mean, and Innocent.
With tears in my eyes of course,
Amber
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I know exactly how you feel! Sometimes, when it's just makenzie and I and all you can hear in the house is her little giggles or when she runs up and squeezes my neck with a hug, I want to cry. Cry happy tears. Being a mom is the BEST feeling in the entire world.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, I've cried many times listening to NEver Grow Up. I actually sing it to Makenzie some nights. She loves when I sing her to sleep... For now :).
Ashley Martin (Coffman)